May Lord Jesus forgive you in your sins.
You are still in your twenties and you still have enough time to explore and think as
well as ponder. Your entering Islam is not a hopeless matter. As you may or may not
know, some of the biggest enemies of Islam, even priests, such as Uday bin Hatem and
al-Najashi as well as others were non-Muslims and rejecters of faith and then Allaah
guided them to Islam.
In any case, welcome to our page as a user. If you have any real questions, you are
welcome to ask at any time.